And you thought I would wither and fade away

For months this thought had troubled me, for nights I lay thinking about the way things turned out, who would have thought that the answer to my wretched nightmare would lie in a book called 'The secret' by Rhonda Byrne. This nightmare had weighed me down for months and I woke up thinking about killing myself and killing those who torment me in my dreams and I would ask my sister what would they be doing right now and her answer was "they are having sex right now as we speak and you can't do shit about it" and I would gulp down this hard fact, usually with a sleeping pill.

All these nights I had just one thought in my mind, I need an answer for this and I need to put an end to this evil. Three months later a friend gives me a book out of nowhere and she says "this will change the way you think, try it" and I looked at the book and it was called 'the secret'. There it was, the answer to my question. The secret it holds is no complex chemical formula nor is it alchemy, the secret is the power of positive thinking and positive feeling. I can't explain this to you but you have to read this for yourself because when you do, you will get to say that expression that you hardly get to say .... "deja vu"

The book simply states we can achieve everything in life by following 3 simple steps of think, feel and believe. These are one of the most power tools an individual posses but man fails to match it with the wisdom. Now I see things unfolding in front of me, my past was vortex of negativity comprising of a very strong black hole with the heart colder then the north pole and filled with gluttony. I would have been sucked in to this god forsaken hole if I hadn't made the mistake of making a wish to change my life dramatically. That wish was a positive feeling, a thought, a desire for freedom..... then I forgot all about it. Today 5 months later I realized that what I wished for had come true and thing were better than ever I discovered myself, saw who what this evil had made me, felt the sadness it had caused to my loved ones and then I prayed and thanked to the one force in the universe who has no name or a face but watches over us diligently and with mercy. I said to myself "deja vu". My nightmares have faded away, my tormentors are dead and my equilibrium restored. I want to send a strong message through this blog, everything we ask for is received to us in this life but remember you have to pay a price for it, if your wish is honest and selfless you need not worry but for all those whose hearts are filled with greed and self preservation you will have to pay for it in this life or the next.